Have you stepped out into a new career, or your life-long dream and found that it’s not working out? So now you are angry with God for holding out a promise (“follow your bliss,” etc.) and not keeping it. Yet God has not failed you. What has happened is that you have confused “Doingness” with “Beingness,” and therein seen failure. (There is a lot said about this in Bringers of the Light, which discusses, among other things, the concept of Right Livelihood.) Let me just state a principle here which I believe I can reduce to one sentence.
It is from Beingness that Doingness springs... not the other way around.
In other words, let’s say you feel you are a writer. You would really be happy if you could “do” the thing called “write.” It could be poetry, prose, novels, whatever. You just want to write. But you can’t “do” that, because you’re “caught in the corporate world,” or whatever the particular “trap” seems to be that you are in. Okay, so you can’t write for a living, and therefore you are not “being” the thing called “happy.”
The above paradigm suggests that “beingness” springs from “doingness,” and is dependent upon it. That suggestion is false. In Ultimate Reality, it is just the other way around. Your “doingness” is a demonstration of what you are Now Being (consciously or unconsciously).
If you want to “be” the thing called “writer,” “be” that thing no matter what you are “doing.” In other words, you could be a dishwasher at the Stork Club, and still “be” the other thing called “writer.” (Half the writers in New York are.) Put another way, writers write to be happy, no matter what they are doing to stay alive! A true writer never stops writing, no matter what he is doing, no matter where she is working, no matter how little time there is. There is always time to be who you are, because the time to Be Who You Are is all the time.
So write, write, and write some more! Write day and night! On the bus! In the john! During the coffee breaks and after the day is done. Write. Write! Write from the heart of what you think is good and beautiful and wondrous about the world. Or about what you think needs changing, if you prefer. Just write your truth, and write it truthfully. Then send it off. And keep sending it off! Keep writing and keep sending it off! For days. Weeks. Months. Years.
Insist to the Universe that you Are who you Are... no matter what it “looks like” you are “doing.”
For further clarity on this question of being, please reread CwG Book 1, Chapter 12. Also Chapter 11 while you’re at it.
Beingness must always precede creating. The person who gets the “perfect” job is not being “rewarded” by the universe, but is simply being presented with that which he has already created through his beingness. The universe did not “reward” the man, but simply presented that which he had already created through his beingness. The universe does not “reward” as such. Rather, it only presents us with the opportunity to make use of that which our beingness has manifested in our lives.
Your responsibility is to be the Greatest Version of the Grandest Vision you ever had about yourself. In this, you have total responsibility. Your beingness will attract unlike things like a magnet, but, if you can continue to be that which you have chosen to be despite the appearances of these “unwanted” occurrences, an amazing thing happens. By maintaining your beingness despite everything else, it is as if a vacuum is created which draws opportunities to you for you to experience your beingness to an ever-increasing degree.
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